This month I turn 27 years old. I honestly don't want much. Maybe a movie and relaxation.
The ultimate present would to allow me to the ability to adopt Jacob. Jacob is finally adjusted to the fact that his biological mom does not care. She has not talked to him since 4/21/13. I feel helpless, it is crazy that Jacob has to learn that his mother cannot get over herself and call him.
Jacob is awesome, I mean I am not going to say he is a perfect angel. but he is a smart, smiley, happy child. He know it has been a long time since his mom has talked to him. at least once a week he picks up his phone and say really loudly, "I am mad because my mommy won't talk to me." then he will hang up with that person and call his mom and say "mommy you have to stop being bad and talk to me" in which he acts like her and says "I know bubby". Last week was really hard on me because he sat down with Mario (his dad) and said with the saddest look on his face "Mommy does not love me anymore". I cried right there because I heard the hurt in his voice and I say the tears in his eyes. Right then and there I vowed to try to be strong for Jacob especially with issues that involve the bitch that is his bio mom.I may be momma Jess, but he is my son and I love him with all my beating heart.
Well to change the subject a bit, Mario and Jacob are arguing about me. Jacob wants me to have a boy and Mario wants me to have a girl. I would really love to have a girl but I will be excited no matter what. If I do have a boy that would be nice too, I won't be as nervous cause I grew up around boys.
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